Wolves, Shepherds, Sheep, & New Horizons
Such a rant I embarked upon yesterday. I was all up in arms, and it was a subject I have been trying to get to for well over a week, basically since the day (06/14/05 which happens to be Flag Day) I heard Dick Durbin’s comments.
Today I am a much happier person, not that I was pissed with the world or anything yesterday, but that whole issue had been bubbling for some time, a topic about which I wanted to soapbox. So I have read through my favorite blogs and must go ahead and knock out my nightly post as there are other things on the agenda tonight.
I hope I do not jinx myself, but I must tell you all I have an interview on a position I desperately want, and not because this place sucks ass and is an extension of the 13th round of Hell. This position is written for me; it is the “ideal” position and will put me back onto my career aspirations, rather than being just a job where I get paid for working and doing my time. I mentioned some posts ago, that I was not going to talk about my interviews and the such, but I am pretty excited and that is what is on my mind at the moment. I have had other interviews over the weeks and months and I have not mentioned them, and for good reason, they have not panned out. I have some others coming up as well, but this is a position I am after, and I want it, so it is at the forefront of my thoughts. My fear… I will come back to this place tomorrow night feeling as if the interviews were disastrous, or I wait week after week again for naught.
Now that I have expressed my fears, I will put them behind me, and I will be the wolf. I tell my son that he too is a wolf. There are three kinds of people, the shepherds, the sheep, and the wolves. Please do not think I am condescending, and this is only my philosophical view on life, but here goes.
Shepherds – these are the very good and gracious people in the world, they are wise and spiritual people. Now these folks don’t have to be clergy or “Holy” people and probably most of them are not. My wife is one of these people, she tries to guide me to help me become a better person, but I fear have many more lives to go before I become enlightened.
Sheep – most people are sheep. The best way I can describe the sheep is they are the people in the middle of lanes of the interstate during rush hour. They do what everyone else does, they honestly care what other people think of them, and follow the crowd, rarely thinking “out of the box”. I think sheep are generally not creative, but for the most part are pleasant people.
Wolves – I am a wolf, and like most wolves I think we tend to have an overbearing personality. We are creative, think out of the box, look for alternatives, make creative decisions and make them quickly. We are strong willed and really do not put a lot of credence in what others think of us. We are leaders and most people think we are mean, arrogant and uncaring.
Since I have been at my current place of employment I have played the sheep as I want no trouble, no real responsibility, and to maintain my position I know I cannot be vocal or challenging. I am not in a position to get things done here, to make things happen, to bring about improvement, to make things better for the organization or the people. This machine expects performance and nothing more from me. My interview tomorrow represents a new opportunity to throw off the sheep’s clothing and get back to the wolf I am at heart. But not only does it represent this opportunity, but I miss being the wolf, and I miss getting excited about my job, and I miss doing something I see as meaningful not only to myself but for other people.
I mean, I shit you not, that if I could do something big for people; to do something philanthropic that would be big, to organize it, run it, and do something good for a lot of people, I would. I enjoy making things happen, to see a project completed and see people getting something positive from those things I have built. I know of this structure in a city I once used to live where I was a primary manager. I remember the excitement I had the day the project started as it was the first one I would both start and finish. The day it was finished, there was a large party I attended, and I felt full of accomplishment that the final punch list had been completed and the final payment made to the contractors. It was a pretty huge day for me.
It is jobs like this, that I will be interviewing for today, that will allow me to feel those sort of accomplishments again. It has been much too long since I cared about what I do. I look forward to feeling that sense of accomplishment again. I hope this is the one thing I have been hoping for over these past months.
Today I am a much happier person, not that I was pissed with the world or anything yesterday, but that whole issue had been bubbling for some time, a topic about which I wanted to soapbox. So I have read through my favorite blogs and must go ahead and knock out my nightly post as there are other things on the agenda tonight.
I hope I do not jinx myself, but I must tell you all I have an interview on a position I desperately want, and not because this place sucks ass and is an extension of the 13th round of Hell. This position is written for me; it is the “ideal” position and will put me back onto my career aspirations, rather than being just a job where I get paid for working and doing my time. I mentioned some posts ago, that I was not going to talk about my interviews and the such, but I am pretty excited and that is what is on my mind at the moment. I have had other interviews over the weeks and months and I have not mentioned them, and for good reason, they have not panned out. I have some others coming up as well, but this is a position I am after, and I want it, so it is at the forefront of my thoughts. My fear… I will come back to this place tomorrow night feeling as if the interviews were disastrous, or I wait week after week again for naught.
Now that I have expressed my fears, I will put them behind me, and I will be the wolf. I tell my son that he too is a wolf. There are three kinds of people, the shepherds, the sheep, and the wolves. Please do not think I am condescending, and this is only my philosophical view on life, but here goes.
Shepherds – these are the very good and gracious people in the world, they are wise and spiritual people. Now these folks don’t have to be clergy or “Holy” people and probably most of them are not. My wife is one of these people, she tries to guide me to help me become a better person, but I fear have many more lives to go before I become enlightened.
Sheep – most people are sheep. The best way I can describe the sheep is they are the people in the middle of lanes of the interstate during rush hour. They do what everyone else does, they honestly care what other people think of them, and follow the crowd, rarely thinking “out of the box”. I think sheep are generally not creative, but for the most part are pleasant people.
Wolves – I am a wolf, and like most wolves I think we tend to have an overbearing personality. We are creative, think out of the box, look for alternatives, make creative decisions and make them quickly. We are strong willed and really do not put a lot of credence in what others think of us. We are leaders and most people think we are mean, arrogant and uncaring.
Since I have been at my current place of employment I have played the sheep as I want no trouble, no real responsibility, and to maintain my position I know I cannot be vocal or challenging. I am not in a position to get things done here, to make things happen, to bring about improvement, to make things better for the organization or the people. This machine expects performance and nothing more from me. My interview tomorrow represents a new opportunity to throw off the sheep’s clothing and get back to the wolf I am at heart. But not only does it represent this opportunity, but I miss being the wolf, and I miss getting excited about my job, and I miss doing something I see as meaningful not only to myself but for other people.
I mean, I shit you not, that if I could do something big for people; to do something philanthropic that would be big, to organize it, run it, and do something good for a lot of people, I would. I enjoy making things happen, to see a project completed and see people getting something positive from those things I have built. I know of this structure in a city I once used to live where I was a primary manager. I remember the excitement I had the day the project started as it was the first one I would both start and finish. The day it was finished, there was a large party I attended, and I felt full of accomplishment that the final punch list had been completed and the final payment made to the contractors. It was a pretty huge day for me.
It is jobs like this, that I will be interviewing for today, that will allow me to feel those sort of accomplishments again. It has been much too long since I cared about what I do. I look forward to feeling that sense of accomplishment again. I hope this is the one thing I have been hoping for over these past months.
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