A Short Rambling Diatribe... Hell, does this even make sense?
Have you ever been in a situation where you are at work, and there is something you should be doing. Something that is so critical that you really need to do it, yet you just don’t feel like doing it? Well I am having one of those nights. There are some things I really need to be doing so I know how to react should something happen that I have to report on… But you know what? I just don’t give a fuck. Now I have been the industry I am in for over 15 years. I believe I am a near senior type of person in this field and it is really very sad when a person in their field becomes so fucking apathetic. But that is just where I am at the moment!
My wife and I were discussing general tuff the other day or maybe today. At this point things blur together because I cannot keep track of days and nights and breakfasts and dinners and such things. However now that I concentrating, I think our conversation about this happened today. Once again, I digress… SO my wife and I were discussing a couple of interviews I have had and some things I am working on, and she told me that she has never seen me like this before.
You see, I am expecting to speak with some of my upper management today because I missed some training on one of my days off, the other day. I expect this because they expected me to be there, but you know what? I had shit to do. I had a doctor appointment, had a lawn to maintain, and some time to spend with my kids and wife. Unfortunately, my management doesn’t care about those things, sort of how they wish not to pay me when I do attend this shit. I think that is another reason I avoid post forty hour meetings and training sessions. My management somehow has it in their fucking minds that I should not bill them for this time. I mean, holy shit, like I am some fucking whore that wants to give freebies and samples. I charge them anyway and never hear anything after the fact, but every once in a while I get called on the carpet and asked why I am billing and that I am a professional and should be showing them some kind of fucking courtesy. WTF is that all about? I mean I get no vacation, sick time, and pay for my own benefits and they want extra time out of me? Like asking a hit man to cap a mark and then hit the wife for free. Folks it ain’t happening, I get paid by the hit and there are no freebies.
So yes, I have become apathetic to this whole situation. Mimi commented on how I was all about the company, and how I work tireless hours, and made things happen, fight all the fights that needed to be fought, and so on and so on. Now I could give a shit. I am not even sure if I care about getting fired. I mean, I know I do not want to get fired or lose my job. But at the same time, I have to think to myself, what a relief it would be. I know from a financial situation I could crash and burn, and that would be bad for my family. And that my friends, is what keeps me going. Nothing else, just maintaining things for my family until I can get out from this fucking rock.
So enough with all the bitching and griping, I am sounding like Anakin/Luke Skywalker… A whiny ass bitch once again. So if you take a look at my wife’s blog you will see we had an interesting weekend. Now if you do check the entry out about our weekend, you will find I am lacking in the foreplay department, which I do need to get better at, I have had that problem for some many years. I know why I am not good in that department (something I will take offline) but just one of those issues I know I need to improve upon. So for you couple of readers, make sure you give your wife some good foreplay, they really do need it.
So to wrap up the weekend, besides missing some CRITICAL training, it was pretty decent. Saw The Longest Yard (the original and the remake both had great qualities, and both are funny in their own rite), had some interesting public sex in a deserted parking garage (damn that rain, the plan had been to take her to the top deck), good hot tub sex (I finally figured out how to unlock that fucking control pad), assisted my son in getting enough trade in stuff together plus other monies he has to get himself a PSP, played with my little girl and mowed and manicured the lawn. A pretty decent weekend after all is said and done.
Work now calls, so I now have to deal with the bullshit this place dishes out.
My wife and I were discussing general tuff the other day or maybe today. At this point things blur together because I cannot keep track of days and nights and breakfasts and dinners and such things. However now that I concentrating, I think our conversation about this happened today. Once again, I digress… SO my wife and I were discussing a couple of interviews I have had and some things I am working on, and she told me that she has never seen me like this before.
You see, I am expecting to speak with some of my upper management today because I missed some training on one of my days off, the other day. I expect this because they expected me to be there, but you know what? I had shit to do. I had a doctor appointment, had a lawn to maintain, and some time to spend with my kids and wife. Unfortunately, my management doesn’t care about those things, sort of how they wish not to pay me when I do attend this shit. I think that is another reason I avoid post forty hour meetings and training sessions. My management somehow has it in their fucking minds that I should not bill them for this time. I mean, holy shit, like I am some fucking whore that wants to give freebies and samples. I charge them anyway and never hear anything after the fact, but every once in a while I get called on the carpet and asked why I am billing and that I am a professional and should be showing them some kind of fucking courtesy. WTF is that all about? I mean I get no vacation, sick time, and pay for my own benefits and they want extra time out of me? Like asking a hit man to cap a mark and then hit the wife for free. Folks it ain’t happening, I get paid by the hit and there are no freebies.
So yes, I have become apathetic to this whole situation. Mimi commented on how I was all about the company, and how I work tireless hours, and made things happen, fight all the fights that needed to be fought, and so on and so on. Now I could give a shit. I am not even sure if I care about getting fired. I mean, I know I do not want to get fired or lose my job. But at the same time, I have to think to myself, what a relief it would be. I know from a financial situation I could crash and burn, and that would be bad for my family. And that my friends, is what keeps me going. Nothing else, just maintaining things for my family until I can get out from this fucking rock.
So enough with all the bitching and griping, I am sounding like Anakin/Luke Skywalker… A whiny ass bitch once again. So if you take a look at my wife’s blog you will see we had an interesting weekend. Now if you do check the entry out about our weekend, you will find I am lacking in the foreplay department, which I do need to get better at, I have had that problem for some many years. I know why I am not good in that department (something I will take offline) but just one of those issues I know I need to improve upon. So for you couple of readers, make sure you give your wife some good foreplay, they really do need it.
So to wrap up the weekend, besides missing some CRITICAL training, it was pretty decent. Saw The Longest Yard (the original and the remake both had great qualities, and both are funny in their own rite), had some interesting public sex in a deserted parking garage (damn that rain, the plan had been to take her to the top deck), good hot tub sex (I finally figured out how to unlock that fucking control pad), assisted my son in getting enough trade in stuff together plus other monies he has to get himself a PSP, played with my little girl and mowed and manicured the lawn. A pretty decent weekend after all is said and done.
Work now calls, so I now have to deal with the bullshit this place dishes out.
posted by Just Call Me Jay at 8:24 AM
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